Archive for October, 2002

A Wedding Dinner

Tuesday, October 29th, 2002

On Sunday night, I saw two ex-colleagues get married. They held their wedding reception at Orchard Hotel. They had been courting for many years, and we all shared a sense of relief when we heard about this wedding.
I had the fortune to be stuck on the same table as the director of my previous company. […]

Being a Man

Saturday, October 26th, 2002

In recent months, there’s been many incidents that seem to probe the essence of my manhood. For the first time in years, I’m coming to grips with the passions within - the fear of intimacy, the admiration of sacrifice, the sexual hunger. It is at not a complete revelation, but a renewed understanding of these […]

Happy Birthday

Thursday, October 24th, 2002

To myself, another birthday. Not many people know about it, and its been relatively quiet. The damned ICQ still goes around announcing it to everyone who has me on their contact list - I should update that record soon.
Received a couple of SMS greetings, a card, a phone call. I tell myself that I […]

Forgotten

Wednesday, October 23rd, 2002

How quickly memories fade! I remembered waking up over the weekend to an interesting dream. But I cannot recall its details now. Its a mere three days past. These experiences do not stick around for long, and the ones I wish to preserve must be committed to the journal as soon as possible.
How much of […]

In Public View

Wednesday, October 16th, 2002

My previous worries about people reading this site seemed to be a little of an over reaction. Wil had no idea this site existed, so it must have been somebody else. IP addresses reveal so little, especially with all these Singapore visitors coming through the filtering proxies.
However, my conclusions remain firm - it is self-defeating […]

Fresh Air Fiend

Tuesday, October 15th, 2002

Paul Theroux is a well-travelled man. In Fresh Air Fiend, he writes of his travels around the globe, and provides us with an insight to what travelling has taught him.
He seeks the mystery of travel: being a stranger along in a foreign land, being on the outside, being alone. All this, and what does he […]

A Sneak Smoke

Thursday, October 10th, 2002

For the past four months, I have been visiting Uncle Seng. He has been undergoing treatment for lung cancer, and his condition has steadily deteriorated.
Last Friday, he was admitted to hospital. He’s being fed antibiotics and is on an oxygen line. The slightest exertion exhausts him, and he’s not allowed to move around on his […]

Dreaming

Thursday, October 10th, 2002

Woke up with a dream with AG in it. We had moved in together, and it seemed as if things were back to how they were before. Her attentions were comforting.
This was a surprise because I had believed these dreams to be a thing of the past. It cannot be an image of today’s […]

In Search of Self

Monday, October 7th, 2002

I’m back from a two-day retreat by the Harvesters. It was a simple retreat aimed at searching for our calling, both individually and as a group.
Fr JJ Fenelon was an excellent facilitator. He taught well, leading from one topic to another fluently. In addition, he had a wonderful voice, and shared beautiful […]

Price of Wisdom

Friday, October 4th, 2002

Ouch! My rear molars are giving me trouble again, all because of an impacted wisdom tooth. My gums are swollen, and my mouth can no longer close normally. What a pain!
This infection of the gums have happened before, and will probably happen again. At least until the day I muster enough courage to schedule […]